So I've always been into this spiritual stuff right. Well a few months ago I was just minding my own business, trying to sleep as usual. When all of the sudden, my body goes into this vibrational state. Now during that first (as you may call it "sleep paralysis") experience I was scared out of my wits. I had no idea what was going on, apparently I just kept sinking deeper and deeper into it. I thought I was having some sort of mental breakdown.
Anyways, I get scared and try to move and shout. I could do none of these things, I struggled against the feeling as it was not something I had consciously felt before. I begun hearing voices, oh man so many voices. I thought to myself, is that my subconscious trying to talk to me? I eventually got out of it a few moments later. I was literally so shocked that I ran into my bathroom and hid their (during like midnight for some time) hyperventilating and having a panic attack. I never wanted to feel that way again.
But a few nights later, the same experience happened again! This time it was visual, saw something transform like evolution from a human to an elephant and some other things that didn't make a lick of sense. When I got out of the sleep paralysis, I immediately went online to search for it. Apparently I wasn't alone and many, many others had experienced this. My goodness it was very terrifying. I then learned all about astral projection and how sleep paralysis was the first step to getting their. But I didn't want to feel that way again so I didn't even bother trying until now.
This happened over the course of the past few months maybe 7-8 times in total. Each time I went deeper and just accepted it, but ended up lucid dreaming when I went too deep. I got terrified thinking a demon or something was in my room going to scare me if I went into the astral plane, so I screamed affirmations in my mind such as "angels please protect me" and "angels please guide me" or something of the sorts.
My latest sleep paralysis was when I was doing a theta hz waves meditation but I got so relaxed that it happened again. This time, I wasn't scared as much as the first time (mainly because I had anxiety issues and working through them really helped me). I begun to go deeper into it. I kept hearing the voices and even MYSELF say "I don't want them to know." And as soon as I asked "What don't I want them to know?" I slipped into lucid dreaming once again. I was completely aware of myself, even thought I was awake (happened like 5 hours ago). I did it during when the sunshine could be seen in my room, but in my lucid dream it was completely dark.
Although, after I went into it I tried some techniques I memorized (pulling yourself up with a rope, getting your hands out) but when I thought I had stood my astral body up, I was awake. I was very disappointed thinking I could actually do it this time since the vibrations were extremely strong and the hallucinations got stronger.
I hope you liked my story! Going to try it again in the next few days.
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I'm currently spinning myself out of my body, the centrifugal force literally sends my astral body out to the globe like surface the force creates around me. The faster I spin the larger the globe/surface. Just now I expanded to the edges of a very large room, and could feel the walls closing in on me my astral body was so huge.
Fear not the dark things either. While they're the seeds of what I knew as night terrors as a child, now at 39, and knowing how to project, fly, remain conscious, and fight with a potency these creatures cannot match, that sleep paralysis/vibrational tied fear has become thrilling extasy. It's all about belief in one's self and knowing you are a good person on a new spiritual frontier that you've earned. I believe in all of you. So keep facing it, I promise things will change if you do.
And work on remembering your shadow memory. Nothing wrong with suffering in the physical plane too, just as long as it's building your will to persevere. I think that's why it's finally becoming so far easier for me; I am finally a man that cannot compromise my honor and integrity for anything in this petty and materialistic world, nor am I able to stoop morally low even though everyone around me is.
I won't say it hasn't been far lonelier in the physical world because of it either, but the experiences I'm having in the astral are more than making up for it. Keep trying and be well all. And boy is it great to see others coming to terms with this thing much like I did throughout my childhood, and as a young adult into my 30s. We'll be waiting for you until you do.