Woke up at 6 am to practice astral projection. As I was laying in bed I set an intention and affirmation that I would let my body fall asleep while keeping my mind awake. At first I kept getting little itches and distractions but I just continued to lay still and let them all come and go. Before I knew it I was dreaming strange random dreams. At one point during a dream all of a sudden it just hit me that I was dreaming! I became lucid so I started to laugh and jump and swing my arms around in the air. While doing this I started to think about my physical body laying in bed. As soon as I thought of my physical body I was transported to my dark bed room and felt intense humming vibrations comsuming me. I was in sleep paralysis, I could see the room around me but could not move... My physical body that is.
I raised my arms and felt my energy body's arms raise from my physical body. They almost looked invisible except for a rippling type pattern sort of waving in front of me. What happened next was I willed myself out from my sleeping physical form. As soon as I willed it my energy body started to effortlessly float away and move like how a ghost would. As I moved away from my body I headed staright ahead of me towards the door. My boyfriend was in the living room and I wanted to visit him before starting my journey. It all felt slightly disorienting and light headed.
As I tried to either open the door or move staright through it I suddenly felt a force grabbing and pulling my whole entire energy body, trying to pull me away from the door and back into the dark room. As I felt this uncomfortable force aggressively pulling me back I also heard a very creepy deep masculine voice speaking in some sort of different language I could not understand. It quickly became very eerie, I knew I did not want to see what this what I would assume is a lower vibrational parasitic form looked like after feeling its annoying controlling force and disturbing sounding voice. So I willed myself back to my body to wake up.
Unfortunately it wasn't so easy to just wake up. I kept getting stuck in sleep paralysis. I would feel vibrations and feel heavy and stuck in my body trying to raise my physical arms and get up out of bed. I just felt heavy and paralysied, all I could feel moving was my energy body inside of my physical body moving around. This kept happening for probably 15 to 20 minutes before I was actually able to truly wake up and get out of bed. I'm not scared about what happened just a bit disappointed. I have been able to have obe's and lucid dreams my whole life. Sometimes they would spontaneously and randomly happen and other times like today I would will it and practice inducing it myself. What disappoints me most is that every time I have obe's they are always extremely creepy and unpleasant. I have seen things I would consider ghosts, demons, or lower vibrational entitys around me and interfering with basically every experience I've ever had. I am never able to get far away enough from my body to have a true astral projection experience. And I know it is because these lower creatures always mess with me and make me feel too creeped out and uncomfortable where I just want to wake up and get out of bed.
How can I break the fear? How can I just move past these creatures fearlessly and go see the beauty of the higher vibrational astral realms?