This is really freaking me out and I'd like to know if anyone else here has had a similar experience and can explain to me what it going on.
My boyfriend of 4 months and I have a very strange and very strong connection: at times it's as if we can pick up on each other's thoughts, and, often, he says he can sense my emotions while I'm away, and it's gotten to the point where we think that I've begun accidentally astrally projecting myself to him whenever I'm somewhat drowsy and thinking hard about him and the issues that we've been having. Not only that, but, often he tells me he can sense when I'm thinking about him, and occasionally when I test this out and 'push' my thoughts at him, we're able to have nonverbal conversations over text- with me 'pushing' or 'throwing' thoughts and ideas, and him responding by saying things like "ok", or "yes, or even, I'll do that"; even, at times when we're alone together and I call out his name in my mind, and he'll answer with a spoken "yeah?", or will just walk over to see what I wanted.
Recently, though, we've been getting into some serious disagreements about the direction of the relationship and I've begun to have trouble sleeping at night- which is normal for me when I'm stressed. What's not normal, though, is that I've been staying awake and letting my mind just run free, and as a result, some very queer things have begun happening between my boyfriend and myself. On the evenings where I've been staying up too late and and almost obsessing over the issues we've been having, the following days after these sleepless nights, my boyfriend says that he has the strangest dreams about me and he wakes up with the strongest and most uncontrollable urges to do certain things, the very same things that I stay up late willing him to do with my mind.
For example, after a big fight two weeks ago, the kind of fight that was so unbelievably out of control that the both of us probably should and could have pressed charges on each other and hated the other person's guts for the rest of our individual lives, I stayed up all night and became so tired by 4AM that I started 'hallucinating' while in between wake and sleep- still conscious- just lying in bed and super imaginative in the way you can sometimes only be when drifting off to sleep. I pictured my boyfriend's form and face in my mind, somehow called it forth, until it was like he was standing and peering at me through a dark ink cloud, and I pushed my form out to meet his. Our noses touched, and with a strange jolt and release of physical energy from my chest, I cried "come to me", and planted a kiss on his mouth. The physical sensation jolted me out of my half-wake state, and strangely, I felt this heavy sensation that felt full of dread. In my gut, I knew that there was 'something coming', I didn't understand who or what or how. Again, as I tipped my head back onto my pillow and fell back into my half-wake state, I saw and felt a dark figure that I understood was a spirit, passing on foot through a thicket of trees and grass, under the light of the moon, cutting through the park near my house- the figure was illuminated by the light of the moon.
The next morning, I shiat you not, I woke up to the doorbell and there he was. Mr. Lose-my-number-I-never-want-to-see-your-fae-again, standing on my doorstep looking a little confused. I never mentioned what I felt that night, but, I asked him what caused his huge change in heart, and, he told me that he had the strangest dream and woke up at around 4:30AM and had to fight the urge to grab his keys. Fell back asleep and immediately came over as soon as he woke up at a regular hour.
Since then, immorally- I've been testing this new-found skill out on him and there have been other equally frightening experiences with astral projection and planting ideas in his mind through our connection. WTF is going on, who can relate? Can someone please explain this all to me?